So, I have been hunting for a website for awhile that's not blocked while I'm at work in which I could share photos of my miniatures that I paint up.
Oh, if I haven't mentioned on here (seeing as I kind of didn't blog for like a year or more), I am way into miniatures and painting and table-top wargaming these days. To the point I haven't really played any video games with any sincerity since like November. Me, the guy in the family teased for his video gaming love since childhood, doesn't even really play them anymore.
ANYWAY:
Sharing photos. Problematic. I currently upload them all to Photobucket, which is blocked at work. Even if I had a facebook, I know that site is blocked. Also, twitter? Yeah, blocked.
It's supposed to be all social networking sites. Looks like they didn't notice Blogspot. I should feel bad because I'm actually typing this at work right now in between what I do, but I really don't because I trust myself enough to not do anything that'd get me and our company in trouble. I'm just not that kind of guy. Seriously, I just want a place I can show off photos to co-workers! I get why instagram and all that is blocked, and I imagine this place will be too if anyone chooses to go through my browser history, but man... Can you really blame a guy for wanting to show off the works of art he creates in his spare time to friends and co-workers?
So, depending on how guilty I feel about this (because I'll probably tell them they should add blogspot to the list of places to block and shoot myself in the foot for it!), I might co-opt this page as my new Miniatures blog. Or, most likely, this will remain my personal blog and I'll just go make a new one.
Probably the latter. I do plan on expanding it into a small business just for me to take commissions. That is the plan. Let's see if it ever comes together.
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Haven't blogged in awhile.
Haven't written in awhile. Figured I should just for catharsis' sake.
I have a serious image problem, in that the image of who I am that I put out there is not how I really see myself. I know that others kind of see me as this giant dopey insensitive jerk who's angry and sad all the time, and I mean, I am angry and sad a lot of the time and I am also kind of insensitive. It just sucks those are the things about me that define who I am to others, because those traits of myself are not how I define myself at all.
Everyone can be rude at times. Some maybe more than others, but we all have that capability. I wonder if part of why people perceive me as rude is because of other personality flaws of mine. Like, it's easier to get offended by someone when you believe that person doesn't care about you or anyone else, because that person puts out into the world how much everything sucks all the time.
I am definitely guilty of that last part, and I wonder if because I have done that for so long, if it hasn't affected deeply the personal relationships I've wanted to develop.
I've been actively trying over the last couple weeks to force myself to think good things about myself, and to try to put those good traits that I know I have out to the world. I really am trying the hokey advice of self-affirmation. Damned if it doesn't actually make a difference!
I've been so focused on my flaws for so long, I've always told myself "You can't do that." Or "You're not good enough for that."
Or worse, I often thought something isn't worth the time and effort.
And here again I noticed I'm doing it again. I've opened up this post with a flaw, and am talking about how I'm correcting it. So I'll just get to the point and skip all the psycho-babble.
I am a great person. I am a kind person. I want everyone to be happy, and not just the people I know but everyone. Even people who've hurt me. I hope somewhere out there in the world, even people who've blatantly disrespected every aspect of my person are happy. I love giving hugs. I try my best to make sure the best possible outcome happens in a situation, and take strides to ensure that I don't take advantage of people. I am funny and make people laugh. If someone asked me for a favor and I was able to accomplish it, then I'm gonna do it because I mean why not? It really is as simple to me as that.
If you're reading this, I don't care who you are, I love you. I know that sounds hokey. I know it does, believe me. It's something I wouldn't believe nor really care to think about if I read it somewhere, but it's true. Try me sometime. Please, try to get to know me or allow me to get to know you. I want to enrich your life, whoever you are. And sure, I am human and will probably mess up a few times. I can't promise I won't mess up, but I can promise I will try five times as hard to fix the mistake, and try ten times as hard to make it up to you.
I have a serious image problem, in that the image of who I am that I put out there is not how I really see myself. I know that others kind of see me as this giant dopey insensitive jerk who's angry and sad all the time, and I mean, I am angry and sad a lot of the time and I am also kind of insensitive. It just sucks those are the things about me that define who I am to others, because those traits of myself are not how I define myself at all.
Everyone can be rude at times. Some maybe more than others, but we all have that capability. I wonder if part of why people perceive me as rude is because of other personality flaws of mine. Like, it's easier to get offended by someone when you believe that person doesn't care about you or anyone else, because that person puts out into the world how much everything sucks all the time.
I am definitely guilty of that last part, and I wonder if because I have done that for so long, if it hasn't affected deeply the personal relationships I've wanted to develop.
I've been actively trying over the last couple weeks to force myself to think good things about myself, and to try to put those good traits that I know I have out to the world. I really am trying the hokey advice of self-affirmation. Damned if it doesn't actually make a difference!
I've been so focused on my flaws for so long, I've always told myself "You can't do that." Or "You're not good enough for that."
Or worse, I often thought something isn't worth the time and effort.
And here again I noticed I'm doing it again. I've opened up this post with a flaw, and am talking about how I'm correcting it. So I'll just get to the point and skip all the psycho-babble.
I am a great person. I am a kind person. I want everyone to be happy, and not just the people I know but everyone. Even people who've hurt me. I hope somewhere out there in the world, even people who've blatantly disrespected every aspect of my person are happy. I love giving hugs. I try my best to make sure the best possible outcome happens in a situation, and take strides to ensure that I don't take advantage of people. I am funny and make people laugh. If someone asked me for a favor and I was able to accomplish it, then I'm gonna do it because I mean why not? It really is as simple to me as that.
If you're reading this, I don't care who you are, I love you. I know that sounds hokey. I know it does, believe me. It's something I wouldn't believe nor really care to think about if I read it somewhere, but it's true. Try me sometime. Please, try to get to know me or allow me to get to know you. I want to enrich your life, whoever you are. And sure, I am human and will probably mess up a few times. I can't promise I won't mess up, but I can promise I will try five times as hard to fix the mistake, and try ten times as hard to make it up to you.
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